Dreams
May 11, 2016
This girl...
This girl whom I love so immeasurably and who also challenges me so unbelievably...
This girl and I were talking this morning after she made a lot of bad choices (because when she does something she commits to it with whole-hearted passion)
about how she's growing up and learning more now that she's 4 1/2 (Hello, Half Birthday! Do we celebrate with half a cake?!)
And out of the blue, this sweet innocent girl said, "When I grow up I want to be a sister."
And a dagger went through my heart. If I thought I was having breathing problems before, this just added to it.
She had finished crying from being caught in her earlier transgressions.
So now it was my turn.
I love her so much, and it breaks my heart that we can't give that dream to her.
But I am so grateful for the gift - and challenge - that is our little C-Bug.
And I'm grateful she has cousins she can love on.
I'm trying to be grateful in all circumstances.
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